Apologies in advance pretty long read.

My boyfriend and I were playing a sexy card game where you each ask each other a question and take of your clothes if the other party guesses currently. For some reason the card had the rate your partner on a scale of 1-10 and to explore what each other like I guess, so the question was technically directed toward him, because there’s two questions on the card, and he rated me a 9 and I asked him how I could improve and he just said ‘i don’t know it just takes practice’ mind you we’ve been together for 2 1/2 years, lived together for a year and a half, we also live with his parents. So this led to me asking the dumb question of if he’s had a 10, he said yes I dumbly asked who, he told me someone who I don’t know, they were only a fling but they went to school together before I went to the school. He just asked me my half of the card and it was the stupidest question I’ve ever seen, it asked me about what my first crush was like and at that point I’m mad at my self for even asking the question cause now I’m feeling self conscious of everything Ive done with him and mad at my self because I can’t be mad at him. I know it’s my own fault for asking the question and trying to deepen it but it really just messed me up.