Hey.. so I don't really know what I'm looking for.. a pep talk maybe? Advice? Idk..

But, I took 2 tests last week and one looked pretty positive but that was after sitting all night and the other had a very very faint line. I'm now almost 2 weeks late and I'm so scared to test again..

We have 2 beautiful kids and we do want more. We just don't know if we're ready and if this is the best time for a baby. I know waiting to test probably isn't the best plan but I'm not even sure what I want the test to say. Like I feel like I'd be thrilled but scared if its positive but also so sad and heartbroken if its negative...

Does anyone have any thing for me?