I feel self conscious and vulnerable talking about this :/

Can I get some thoughts/reassurance?

Ever since covid started and we had to quarantine at home I’ve just been mostly focused on school. I’m at home all the time doing virtual classes. I’m a grad student and my life has revolved around school for awhile. I just completed my bachelors in May and dove right into grad this semester.

I’m currently dating my ex and it’s been going well, don’t get me wrong we had lots of ups and downs but is pretty stable now. He’s also 21 and in college (undergrad).

The main issue that i feel is that I think my life is boring and routine. Sometimes I think “what’s the point in doing this.” When I think about the future, I don’t feel anything positive. The future sounds bleak. Idk if I’m depressed...

Some days I feel random sadness and irritability. This is going on deep inside but around my bf and family I put on a happy/normal facade.

Does anyone else experience this? (This probably doesn’t belong in love & sex)