I am struggling...

I’m having a really hard time with my anxiety... anxiety attacks multiple times a day. My kids aren’t sleeping. My husband and I are constantly fighting. Physically not doing well... I’m having periods that last 3 weeks at a time. Constant pain in my lady areas. I went to the doctor and apparently my insurance only covers having babies and a yearly check up so I spent $40 and every time he suggested a test he’d say “we could do an ultrasound but that’ll be $300.” “We could do blood work but it would be $$$” “all of it would have to be paid today” he put me on birth control and told me hopefully it would regulate everything. They aren’t scheduling Pap smears right now because of Covid. I’m just tired. My house is a mess. Just looking at it or thinking about cleaning it send it into an attack...

Sorry I just had to vent a little. I don’t have anybody that just listens and doesn’t judge and tell me I’m dumb for feeling like I do.