5.5 years ttc, 2 miscarriages and heartache

After 5.4 years

2 miscarriages

Tears, heartache.. I need a break. I can't do this another month.. All the hope, the obsession on periods, ovulation, symptoms... Its killing me.

I have currently been told I have a kidney infection 3 days after a faint positive.. To now be told having protein and blood in your urine can cause false positives. Today AF came and my heart shattered for the millionth time and I just can't...

I'm binning ovulation tests, stop tracking ovulation and just going with the flo before it makes me crazy or worse ruins the relationship with my husband. I need time for me? Has anyone else ever felt like this?