Natural vs perm

So I’ve been transitioning over the past 2 years . Did the big chop last year and my hair grew back amazing. I dyed it a few times and totally messed up my curl pattern now it’s straight and barely curls. Let’s not even talk about shrinkage. It looks horrible at this point and I’m contemplating doing a perm or texturize because I don’t feel good at all. It’s wont even stay neat or in a slick bun for crying out loud and I’m just over it because it looks like I’ll have to do another big chop to get it back how it was. I’m not ready for another big chop honestly.. any advice ??