After Break Up

I can’t do this anymore. He was my best friend and everything to me and he just let our whole relationship slip away. Together almost 3 years, eachothers first loves and he let it all go. 7 weeks later and I’m still confused and feeling like I didn’t get the closure I wanted. He texted me “hey” 2 weeks ago but I thought I deserved more then a hey so I didn’t answer. I’m trying to realize my worth and that I deserve better then him but I want him. The pain is not getting easier and I want to text him so bad even tho everyone tells me I shouldn’t. I think abt him all day, constantly checking on his social media accounts. I can’t stop no matter how distracted I try to be. I can’t be w out him.. I feel empty and broken. It was like he didn’t want me out of no where.