I recently remembered a memory of my older brother molesting me when I was younger and I noticed I keep just wanting to break done and cry. I’ve been through trauma before and never had these strong almost urges to cry.

The feeling is just so overwhelming that I barely have time to keep myself together.

I’ve never been much of a crier so I don’t fully understand what’s happening to me.

If I think about this memory it makes my skin crawl but then almost immediately after I want to just break down and cry.

I was so close to my older brother and he was in his early teens I believe when It happened and I’m 10 years younger than him so I guess I’m angry and disgusted with him but don’t want to accept what happened.

ITS SO FRUSTRATING AND CONFUSING BECAUSE I CANNOT TELL WHAT THESE EMOTIONS REALLY ARE OTHER THAN JUST WANTING TO CRY!!!

Thanks for letting me vent I guess?