Another let down

I just need to vent and let it all out 😭

So I'm not sure how much more I can do this I've had 7 miscarriages early ones at that can't seem to make it past 6 weeks . I've been to the doctor's they say everything is fine but my progesterone levels are low so I take progesterone . That's not working

I really don't know what to do at this point but keep trying or give up .my husband don't have children of his own but I have 3 older children .I had my first daughter at 17 my son at 18 and my daughter at 21 when I was on birth control go figure it was so easy I said pregnant and it happened to me . But now this time in my life I want a baby I wanna be pregnant and happy for my friends that tells me they are .But I put on that face that no one can see my pain .I don't tell my husband it hurts .but what really hurts is when I tell my husband I'm pregnant gets all excited for nothing . I've never seen my baby's on the ultrasound and never heard the heartbeat .all I've ever seen was 2 lines . But I keep all the test so maybe one day when I do give my husband our child I can say it took a long time but you made it home to me 😭