Army and boyfriends 😞

I’m thinking about joining the army very soon because I wanna better life for myself and my future children and today I asked my boyfriend would he go with me or stay... 🥺 he said i don’t know probably stay here... It broke my heart but I understand because this is my decision to join and he doesn’t have to but I would love for him to go with me because if I go active I would be gone for 4 year or maybe more.. maybe when I do join it will be better to just break up with him because if he really loved me and actually wanted this relationship to go farther than just boyfriend/girlfriend he would go with me or at least try.. I know y’all are going to say that I’m selfish or something but I’m just vent honestly don’t care what the negative people think anymore