How to cope

😣 For someone who loves kids now I cant bare a child screaming or crying. What makes it worse my partner has a 4yr old who screams and it just seems unfair that I tell him I cant cope. The child visits every second weekend now this past weekend he was working and I had to look after the child. Everytime I hold the kid it just brings a reminder and everytime he plays with him its a reminder. Don't know how to cope.

I am now 4 weeks post D&C and so far no problems. It's just my emotions getting the better of me.

I just want to get on 0 on my hcg then I can continue with my life