So I finally, after a year, went to the GP to talk about mental health. I kept putting this off and convincing myself I was fine, everyone has mood swings right?

I explained my situation of my highs and lows and lack of control over my thoughts. I told them of my family history of mental health. My past relationship with bulimia and self harming. And I got my referral to talking therapy and some medication to help me in the meantime and then I did what most people would do..I message my mum for support.

Her response was not what I expected, she came up with every reason why I’m not a sad person and that I just need to join a choir or take a multivitamin. I explained I’m not just sad, I have suicidal thoughts, my mind races, I’m irritable, reckless, I’m not in control anymore and she sent me a thumbs up 👍. That was it.

I’d like to think maybe she’s not ready to accept there’s something wrong, or maybe it’s misplaced guilt for not seeing it before? But I feel more isolated than ever before.

Has anyone else been here? Do you have any advice how to get through to her? Sorry if I didn’t explain it very well, I’m happy to answer questions