Hi all, I have a significant problem on my hands. It’s a fear I’m honestly really ashamed about, so please give me your best advice!

So I’m engaged. I’m a young adult who has always had a fear of vaginal penetration of any kind, whether it be a tampon, finger, etc. for as long as I can remember. I’m getting married in less than 6 months and have never even put a tampon in. Nothing has ever gone up there before. The mere thought sends me into a panic attack. I feel incapable of being able to have sex on my wedding night. My partner is a patient, kind, and gentle person, but I am just so scared. I’m not even sure what I’m afraid of or where my fear came from. But I am scared of how painful it will be. I have heard nothing good about vaginal sex, I’ve only heard of how much it hurts and how there is no pleasure for the woman down there.

Please help. I am so scared that it will hurt. 😔 And please don’t judge too hard, I’m incredibly embarrassed to admit this.