First session hypnobirthing experience

So today I had my first group session and I’m curious if anyone else went as well and how they experienced it.

Little backstory:

I wanted to do some kind of course to prepare myself for the birth to come and my emotions surrounding the proces. On one hand everything is going super well but on the other giving birth scares the crap out of me because my sister is handicapped and her 2 kids also with horrible birth stories witch make me scared it’s in my genes.

So today we went and I felt like I was super aware of this and totally did not expect what happend. The lady giving the course was totally positive and not at all making anything scary and just asked one question and it broke me today:

‘ What would you rate your feelings about giving birth today at this moment?’

I realized that I just blocked that whole proces out of my mind and I’m actually avoiding the thought because how much it scares me. I started crying and I wanted to give myself a 2 out of 10. While in reality I have no need too other then my sisters scary experience.

It took me the whole lesson to get a grip on myself but in the end with some focusing techniques I snapped out of it, but it did get me by surprise. I did not realize how much this was already suppressed in the back of my mind. I’m happy I went though because I think it’s better to deal with these things now then when I’m 40 weeks pregnant. (But I did feel a bit embarrassed for all the crying I did in front of some group of strangers.) 😳😖