I had a memory pop up on my phone today from 1 year ago when I got a positive pregnancy test. 2 weeks later, I remember how that excitement of being pregnant turned to heartache when I learned that I was miscarrying.. again. (I had a miscarriage a little less than a year prior to this one.) I had a really tough time emotionally wondering what might be wrong with me, could I even carry a baby again..

2 months after that I got another positive pregnancy test and I couldn't even get excited this time.. all I could do was worry and hope and pray that the baby would make it this time. Every month of this pregnancy was filled with worry until I was finally able to hold my beautiful rainbow baby.

And today, I'm here trying out the new carrier with this happy and healthy 3.5 week old baby girl. My heart is so full.

It's crazy how much things change in a years time.