I don’t usually do this to myself but it’s hard knowing you have clothes for a baby that you don’t even have yet.

Some of these onesies were bought in faith..

and some were gifted to us for people standing in agreement with us over two years ago!

I pulled them out today to get a fresh revelation looking at them..

sometimes I try to picture the little faces that will be in them.

If anyone would have told me the journey would be 3 years and counting I would have told them that I couldn’t handle that. My mind just couldn’t go there.

But ...

I listened to a sermon last week where the Pastor was asking if anyone ever had a situation where they were like “really God?! This? Of all things to go through I have to go through this?!” Speaking in like a negative way.

But...

Then he goes on to say in a more encouraging tone “... yes this. Even this can be used”.

You see my infertility is not my identity, my infertility is not brokenness even through there are days it feels like it is. There’s always a purpose for the pain if we open ourselves up enough to see it.

Once this story ends with babies in onesies it will be my journey and just another chapter in my book of life.

I realize I have a choice .. I can decide if fertility struggles are happening to me or for me..

For me to share with someone else and allow it to be their survival guide.

The crazy thing about life is we don’t get to pick our battles. But the cool thing about life is we get to pick how we respond !

Yes I’ll cry today and probably in the days to come.

But ... I know that Yes even this God can use !