My First

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I just had my first miscarriage 16 days ago at 7.5 weeks. I had no idea that I was even pregnant because my last period came on schedule. So I subconsciously ignored the signs of miscarrying (pink discharge, spotting 3 days prior, but not exactly normal period spotting, pain and nausea) until I got up to use the bathroom in the middle of the night and blood was running down my legs. It was a complete miscarriage so I didn’t need a D&C which I was anxious about.

I feel loss, lost and depressed, highly emotional and run the gamut of feelings and alone. My partner has gone ghost on me. He wanted a baby. So did I, but I think it’s hitting him in ways he won’t communicate with me. It’s been a week since I’ve heard from him and it wasn’t supportive.