8 days ago I miscarried

I was 7weeks but I began spotting oct 23 no hb. Baby was just a little flicker Saturday it began brown and more heavy. Cramps were appearing. I have tolerance to pain but I passed out for low no They told me to come in my scheduled ultrasound but on October 2th big clots appeared then pain. I went to the OB ER. Ultrasound showed a colapssed sac and descended. I passed it out myself 4 hours later.

No need of aspiration d&c. I have a control ultrasound next week. Still spotting

I feel so extremely sad

I’m grieving. I was pregnant 2 weeks ago and I’m not. I don’t have much family all dead. I’ll have an appointment with a therapist on Thursday but I can’t stop crying. At work. In the car. I’m 42 yo. My birthday is in 2 weeks it was the first birthday I had something to celebrate. I’m using floral therapy but the heartbreak and the emotional part is unbearable. I wanted to build my own family