5DPO- doesn’t any one else feel this way?

Cycle 2 TTC - As I said no to wine this evening & cooked my salmon for longer because it was a little pink (how I normally like it), it suddenly hit me how strange it is that there may or may not be someone in the making growing inside me. Just find it a little bizarre being in the TWW and not knowing when it’s such a big important creation. I’m aware some people say drink until it’s pink but the hope alone of getting a BFP keeps me away from any alcohol. Decided to test for the first time a week today at 12DPO. Now just to keep myself distracted until then!