i’ve been fucking this guy since february (took a break because we left college due to corona) yet have continued to hang out from september till now.

he has expressed to me that he is not ready for a relationship right now because he has a lot of issues going on at home that he’s explained to me, which is totally fine because i don’t want one either, i like what we have right now. hanging out, occasional sex, and overall just a good time when we are together. there have been times i’d sleep over his house for multiple days in a row, he even made the time to spend my birthday with me. when we are together he treats me as if we are more than friends so it confuses me. for example if i leave his house before 10am, he would ask why i left so early, or cuddle me till i move away to fuck with him then he would pull me back. he also says he doesn’t open up to a lot of people yet he opens up to me and has even cried to me. i know we both agreed on not having a relationship which i don’t think i’m ready for right now, but a little attention during the day especially now being in quarantine would be nice so i don’t feel as used.

my issue is he still is friends with his ex because they are in same friend group. we’ve talked about it and he said that he doesn’t see her in that way, yet he has said he did love her yet doesn’t feel that way anymore.

our school got put under lockdown so i haven’t been able to see him and i feel like he’s been very distant and i don’t know if i should say anything to him. i leave on the 18th to go home and i want to see him one last time (probably on the 18th because that’s when we are allowed off campus) but i don’t know how to go about doing that.

i like him so much, and i’m not the type for that at all, i can feel there’s more to what we have right now and i haven’t ever felt that before. feeling like we are growing apart right now hurts me because of how i feel about him, but i feel like if i bring it up he’s going to be like “what we r good i’ve just been dealing w everything i told u about.” i don’t want to be pushy but this has really been bothering me. i don’t have anyone i’m comfortable to talk to about this that’s why i’m coming here. please help