I grew up in a very catholic family; many against homosexuality. I find women very beautiful. I always have. Unfortunately, in the small town I live in, there are not many lesbians or bisexuals. In order to fit in with others around me & my family, I’ve dated men. I’ve always been a little disgusted by them, not fully attracted. I just did it because that’s “normal.”

I watch lesbian porn. It’s what turns me on. I know I want to experiment with women.

I’ve been in a committed relationship for 4 years now with a guy I met in high school. Not sure if this is right for me. I feel like I haven’t been able to explore my sexuality and be who I feel I’m supposed to be.

But I’m scared. It’s a big decision.