Ok i need to vent! so I’m a 21 year old single mom to a 9 month old baby girl. I love her with every fiber of my being. I always wanted to be a mother. When I found out I was pregnant at 20 I was engaged to a guy I was with since I was 14. We had plans to move into a nice apartment together and I was going to go to school to be a CNA so that I could help provide for our little family when our baby was born. At 8 weeks pregnant I found out my finance had cheated on me so I left him. He is not very involved with our baby. I am living with my parents and they help me so much financially with my daughter. I love being a Mom more than anything in the world, but lately I’ve been feeling very stuck. I try everyday to be the best mom I can be for my daughter. But at what point is that not going to be enough. At the point where I can’t take her to the places she wants to go when she’s older or the point where I can afford to pay for the sports she’s passionate about or the point where I can’t help her learn things in school because I don’t have a higher education. I want to go back to school I want to get a job. But my mom makes me feel so guilty for needing help with watching my daughter so I can get my life moving. I want to be a midwife and want a job so I can pay for my own schooling, I want to buy a house in the future big enough that my daughter has her own room. I want my daughter to have a mother she can look up to and realize that life dosent always go the way we want but that I tried my best to always make the most of it for us. But I feel like I’m not going to get that chance if i can’t start taking classes and get a part time job. I can’t even run to the grocery store for baby food without my mother getting upset that I asked her to watch my daughter for 20 minutes. I don’t know what to do anymore😢 I don’t have anyone else who can watch my daughter for me and My mom won’t let me put her in daycare during a pandemic!