Feeling resentful

I had a baby this June and because of everything going on I didn’t get to have a baby shower, didn’t get to have newborn photos, didn’t get a maternity shoot. And yet now the cases are way higher and people are posting photos from their showers, their photo shoots, and I’m feeling so resentful. It’s not fair that I didn’t get to have those things. I couldn’t afford them with my first and I was so excited to get them this time around and I budgeted super well in order to get them and then it was all taken from me. I feel like almost no one even acknowledged my baby. I love my baby to bits and I know I can’t change things, but it really upsets me at times.

Edit to add - I did do the shoots myself that’s not the point. I wanted to get them done professionally. And *big shock* a lot of people, myself included, didn’t feel comfortable doing an drive by shower. So much for no judgement.