I’m a FTM.

Is it normal postpartum to feel like you are a bad mum or like you cannot cope and you compare yourself to other mums you see and wonder how they manage it?

Some days are better than others but some days are really really hard. Sometimes I want to take some time to myself, even a shower, but when I get upset about not being able find the time it makes me feel bad like ‘how dare I want to do this’ and leave my baby to spend time on myself, that’s selfish.

I get angry and resentful and project this onto myself and my husband. I feel like I know I have to speak with a doctor but I guess I’m hoping the feelings pass and I manage to get my shit together and turn into this happy, efficient and productive mum.

My baby is my world and I just want to do right by her but sometimes I really feel like I’m drowning. I just feel like I am letting everyone down and I hate myself for it.