i'm sorry this is super dark but i don't know who to talk to about this and i figured someone on here might. i've been sexually assaulted on multiple occasions by two men in my life. the most recent one was just a few months ago and this is the one i have a question on.

did anybody ever get assaulted by someone they had a crush on?

i cannot stop thinking about him.

i'm angry and hurt but i also miss him because we were really close friends for years. and i mean REALLY close, he was always there for me and would do anything for me. he would take me out of my toxic environment i was in. he always made sure i took care of myself.

he was such an amazing guy so it was a huge curveball to have something like that happen. and i never ever got a bad feeling like i usually do with people if they're trouble.

i've been no contact with him ever since but i just want to know if someone has had something similar happen.

part of me wants to unblock him and just talk to him but i know that is most likely not a good idea.