So to start of I have a almost 11 month old girl and now also a 1 week old girl! Now I’d also like to add I’m seeing a psychiatrist and take meds!

I’ve been having very mixed feeling lately about everything. One second I feel amazing like I love life and then the next I just can’t stop crying what so ever. I absolutely adore both my kiddos but it’s definitely harder then I thought with 2.

The thing is I really need to get a job to help out, we are struggling on just his income and not being able to pay some bills.

NOW to the main issue.. SLEEP.!

I I barely sleep at all!! Our first baby sleeps absolutely amazing but this baby wakes up constantly!! On top of that I have anxiety she’s going to stop breathing because I have ptsd from my first baby being in the nicu for so long as she was born early.

My fiancé works full time about 11am to 7pm (usually longer tho) but I he is constantly complaining he’s soo tired even tho I let him sleep uninterrupted for at least 8-9 hours a night, I don’t really have a choice tho he’s such a heavy sleeper that he can’t here the baby cry ever!!

I just fear I’m going to be so stressed I’m going to break because if I go back to work I won’t ever get sleep, because I’ll be working all day and being the only one to take care of our kids at night! I’m not sure what to do but I know I’m tired 😭😂