Toddler weaning and momma is sad

Tonight for the first night in 27 months and 11 days I am not nursing my child to sleep. Wr have shared that special moment every single night since the day she was born but it is time to wean. I sit her bawling in the den as my husband outs her to sleep tonight. I cry because she cries and I know I could fix it all so fast...then I cry because she went down so quickly for the first night without me and I feel like she doesn't need her mommy as much. I know it is hormones and emotions (I am also pregnant) but I already miss that special bond we had. There will be more hugs and kisses and cuddles but that was the one thing me and her had that was just ours and nobody else could have it. I loved nursing and so did she. Neither of us are ready to stop but I have to due to a pregnancy issue so for the next baby I must wean the first. Last night when I knew it was our last night and she didn't I took a photo and a video and told her how much I loved this and how we will always have a special bond knowing she had no idea what was gonna happen tonight. As she fell asleep against my chest I sobbed silently knowing it was the last time. I know she still needs me and I know she loves me and she knows I still love her but I wasn't ready for this day yet. I cannot wait to have this special time with my next baby but I will miss this and always cherish I was able to do it this long. Good by nursing and hello independent toddler. I know this probably seems dramatic but I needed to pen this out to heal. Being a mom is both amazing and devastating all at once. I feel lile tonight I say goodbye to my baby and hello to my big girl. To all the moms out there please cherish every step...even the hard ones. We have such a short time with our kids and we meet them, get to know them, then say goodbye to that stage so soon to meet the next version of them. Cherish the newborn stage, infant, baby, toddler everything because you spend years learning about a new person to say good bye to the old. And you never know when they will change and one day wake up and your toddler is a big kid who doesn't want cuddles or a 8 yr old who doesn't want a hug before school anymore.