My depression has a firm hold on me today. I'm trying to keep my mind away from the darkness but it always ends up in the negative. I've been ttc for almost 2 yrs. My husband and I have a hard time trying to get into it the week of. My husband has recently began not being able to perform because he feels he has let me down. So not only am I falling into the hole but I'm taking my husband with me. I also have high functioning anxiety. Its so hard to stay calm when you think your running out of time to have kids and no one understands why you feel that way. I'm 30 and will be 31 in March. With every year it gets worse. Its eating me up inside. I am on medication for both but it doesn't always make me feel better. I don't know what I need to do to get out of this rut. 😞