We have been fwb since June and started dating end of October. I haven’t told anyone besides my mom cuz I have this weird thing where I feel like I’m gonna jinx it. I wanted to wait before I told ppl

My bf asked if ive told ppl yet and I told him just that. He laughed and stuff. I asked him if he had and he said no he hadn’t either

Idk if he said that because he wanted to match my answer. I was hurt only because his two friends we hang w like 24/7 I thought he would’ve told. Maybe he did and he just didn’t say.

But I also visited his family that I’d met already before, but I’d met his cousin and grandparents while we were official and I guess he didn’t say anything to them then.

He hasn’t met my friends or family yet just because we live far. I’ve been making plans to have them all meet.

I know I’m being a wicked hypocrite but I just hoped he’d of told at least one person. He never gave me a reason but I think it’s because he’s embarrassed of me. He’s been helping me w workout plans and meal plans (I asked for but he realllyyyyy wants it too it seems ..) and he makes comments like “you’d look soooooo good with highlights” or “you look so good w straight hair have you thought about getting it permanently straight?” Same w piercings and like “omg you could be a Victoria secret model if we got your tummy a little more toned and your butt got big. Idk how to help with the boobs maybe chest exercises “

It’s just a lot. It’s like I make a few comments ab insecurities or I joke ab being flat and he thinks it’s an opportunity to say shit like that.

So my point is I think he won’t make it public until I get a better body and a make over. I just worry that this is true and if it is and I don’t meet his expectations for an end results that he’s gonna drop me.

I really like him and he is a nice guy I think. I try to remember he doesn’t mean to come off the way he does but it gets to me still.