no confidence

im 21 never had a boyfriend, only ever had guys flirt with me online to try and get nudes, then after i dont send any im fat and ugly. ive tried going on bumble to meet people but like its just i see them and i think about how unattractive i am in every way like i get so much anxiety about like sure in pictures i look okay but like they’ll see me in person and see how i really look, double chin, stomach, arms you know. i dont know what to do i feel like im literally going to be alone forever and ive tried working out to lose weight but i feel like everyone at gyms are laughing at me like why am i even trying i just dont know what to do i feel like im back in my depression and i fought so hard to stay out of it for 4 years but its just so hard to look in the mirror and try to see anything good whatsoever. i feel like i have no good qualities so of course ill be alone forever. i dont know if i want advice or maybe just that i needed to rant but my mindset right now really sucks..