I’m over this

So basically my boyfriend wanted a break because I’m always starting arguments when he wants my location on or wanting to know where I am 24/7 oh and cause I’m an over thinker.

See I’m an overthinker because of my past my ex made me crazy cause he was controlling and shit. Would always blame everything on me and stuff.

So my bf doesn’t understand why I overthink. He makes everything so dramatic. But the reason I had a go at him for saying since you don’t tell me where u are I’m gonna go for a bit. Is cause he’s always asking me where I am going who’s there, what’s there name, how old are they. He says he does that cause he’s protective but that’s over the line. He even stalks my location when I don’t reply for a bit so I turned it off. I’m not allowed to see guys without him. But yet he can go hang with chicks without telling me.

So the only reason I ask him where he is cause he controls me all the time. It’s bullshit.

Apparently he has a right to know where I am 24/7 and who I’m with and shit. Your not my fucking dad mate.

It’s so  exhausting being him him when I’m with him it’s fine but when I’m not it’s like I’m suffocating cause like I don’t even like going out anymore cause of what he does. He legit makes a big fuss over everything and blames everything on me turning it around on me all the time. He always guilt trips me gaslights me. He even has a go at me if I got out for a bit right and don’t reply for a few hours. He thinks I’m with a guy or something. But when he does it to me apparently I can’t be worried? He knows I overthink but he always plays the victim saying he feels like a shit boyfriend but nothing changes it just gets worse everyday but for some reason I can’t force myself to leave. Because of how much pain I am in I don’t want it to be worse cause I’ve been depressed and I don’t wanna be that bad again

Oh and he lied he said he didn’t wanna talk to anyone but yet he keeps being active so I’m so fucking done