Gotta say after pushing guys away for a year and a half, finally got with someone who knows their stuff!

And he's amazing, i mean "i can't move afterwards" amazing. It feels so strange to actually be desired. I haven't been this physically attracted to a guy in a loooong time. He actually has a sex drive. I was with a few loser types and i didn't even realize they were. One a closet alcoholic, the other a sneaky druggy, the other nice but so scared to say his opinion that he'd sooner eat poo than say it. I'm still a little in awe because I finally feel something close to lust, but also in tune with someone with a great personality. It's really too soon to tell what's going to happen, but for now it's incredible. He goes down on me and makes these wonderful groaning noises. I can hardly stand it anymore and pull him into me and then it's like fireworks. Just amazing. So here's to all y'all who've been feeling like it was kind of hopeless, that you might never feel desirable or that you might never feel something sexy in bed again (like him slapping my ass because he does that too and it's also fantastic 😆). Just hang in there, there's an experience and maybe even a relationship out there just biding it's time until you're ready for the taking!