Every day is a struggle about not getting pregnant after my miscarriage last Oct ?!! Two failed <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> in June and August cancelled my wedding in July and having trouble in work with bullying . I’m trying my hardest to see the good in each day and I’m scared I’m going back into that dark place o was last year . My fiancé give me the best support even though he suffers just as much as I am . He’s such an amazing soul and he does everything he can to make me feel ok , even if he just hold me tight while I cry 😢 . All I do is cry and wish we could have our rainbow 🌈 baby , every month I promise I won’t test anymore yet I can’t help myself and spend so much money on test to just see a FAT negative. I have become very quiet and don’t say much in work ( bullying gotten worse) and I’m trying to keep my head up . The hardest is not being able to see my family being on lockdown I miss my nieces and nephews. Can someone plz give me any advice on how to get better and how to cope with bullying in work ??