Emotionally I'm not me.

I feel bland to everything, I randomly get anxious for no reason.

Ive constantly battled with anxiety, somehow get a hold on it then months later it's back and 10x worse.

I don't know what to do anymore.

I'm worried that when I have this baby il be at breaking point, I've already tried discussing home births with my husband because I'm worrying.

It's hard because I feel like I can't talk to doctors etc about it as I have kids and I don't want to seem like I'm a danger to them by expressing this?