2nd time mommies

We have a very handsome, amazing 17 month old little boy. He is our miracle after 4 miscarriages. And he is my entire world!! We are currently 16 weeks pregnant with our second (also a miracle as we thought we would never get pregnant again). I was hoping for a girl so we could have the best of both worlds. But it’s a boy and I am still super happy about it!

However

I feel guilty already. I feel like my first born won’t understand why his mommy has to put attention to someone else and not him. Like I said, my son is my entire life. He always wants his mommy and my attention (it’s bad enough I work 45+ hours a week so he hardly gets to see me as is) And I don’t ever want him to feel like “mommy doesn’t care about me”.

So please tell me things aren’t that way when the time comes and I have both of my babies together.