I have really bad anxiety and I think I just need a little reassurance 😣

I got my hair done today because it was starting to not look the best, meaning my roots were down to my chin and then I had an orangish color and then white blonde. It sounds terrible but it actually kind of worked and my bf loved it. I talked about going silvery white blonde because I’ve never done it before and he fully supported it and said it would look great.

Today I internally freaked out at my appointment when she was bleaching my roots. I’ve never touched my roots, it’s been my safety blanket having darker roots.

I feel like I look like a different person now without my darker roots and I hate it. My ex told me that if I made changes to my hair and he didn’t like it then he wouldn’t love me anymore. So now I’m terrified that if it doesn’t look good on me or if my bf doesn’t like it then his feelings for me will change.

I have another appointment in 4 weeks and if I haven’t grown to love it in that time then I’m going to get a shadow root put in.

I’m just feeling so much anxiety in the meantime. Pretty sure I went into shock after such a big change 😥 I’m mostly so stressed about what my bf thinks though. He said I’m beautiful but I don’t know if maybe since he knows how upset i am he’s just trying to make me feel better