I don’t know what to do anymore, or how I’m supposed to feel. It’s been 13 months of trying, and nothing. Both of my best friends are pregnant, wanting to constantly talk about it, and I know they know I’m hurting, and I am happy for them, but I’m crying on the inside constantly. I don’t know how to be happy again. I feel like a failure. My body is failing me. I don’t know what to do anymore. I want this so bad, but I just want to stop. I don’t want to be hurting anymore. I want to just be okay without a baby. I’m so sick of feeling sad every time a new person gets pregnant. Im just so jealous of everyone else getting what we have been trying so hard to get.

I’m just venting.