This TWW hits different

I know that in theory this is just like any other wait after you time sex but it’s my first FET (and we went straight to IVF, no IUI) so it feels different somehow. Maybe because I saw the embryo? Also doesn’t help that I work in women’s health and had a 45 minute meeting today giving a new mom parenting advice, and then a 1 hour meeting talking about maternal health info packages with a dozen women, two of whom were pregnant. There’s truly no way to keep it off of my brain. I don’t know how I’ll manage for 8 more days! I’m determined not to test until the morning of my first beta because I know I will obsess if it’s negative. I never was one to test during previous waits.

It just feels dangerous to want this so badly.