Some of you might know who i am by my posts youve read ... The journey between me and my husband hasnt been easy at all in fact its been quite hard we was homeless living in a tent or the car , He would get jobs but then we decided we want to move so he would have to look for another job , Our situation wasnt easy we was staying with roomates practically our whole marriage the most recent roomates we had one got evicted, the other roomate was our pastor he would let us stay in his rent house until we decided to move , We bought a car from The pastors friend and ever since then this car has been giving us problems im talking about us having to come out of our pockets to pay for the damage , We have to pay 300$ down payment and guess what My husband hasnt paid it because Hes trying to wait or stall alittle longer i informed him that he would have to pay it because the car is in his name , I could pay it but my husband wants to wait like i said before , We have to get tags for the car , We have to Go get our 200$ back from The gun store yes the gun store my husband thought it would be a great idea to buy me one even though i didnt want one , We have been living out of hotels for a few days but its getting more costly so we stopped , My husband has the option to go back to texas to get working again and to come back and get me or i could go with him back to texas and more than likely be homeless again trying to survive sleep in a tent etc , yes we moved back to my hometown arkansas we had the intent that we would have a apartment by now and or family would let us stay with them , plans changed . My husband now thinks im not attracted to him , And my view point is we are struggling enough as it is and all he can think about is sex i get it , I love him i do but sex isnt always on my mind . He wanted to watch something on the phone previously before this i asked him if he wanted me to help him he said no . . He barely wants to kiss me , he kisses me but Barely like no desire and i guess it could be true for me too alittle bit its because i dont know enough about making love to even do it hes my first . I feel like he cares more about sex than he does me .