So I was married for almost 8 years. In those 8 years I had 8 miscarriages, the last ones being 01/2016 and was twins. All within the first trimester, all heard their heartbeats and saw their little bean selfs, all lost. I separated and divorced my lying cheating abusive asshat of a husband almost 2 years ago now. However, 6 months after we separated and divorced I met a guy and we started dating. It has been a little over a year now and we live together. All this time, no pregnancy scares, not even a couple days late on a period. Then I was 3 days late this month and my boobs hurt like no other. I thought I might as well take a pregnancy test just for the fun of it. Well it’s definately positive. I started crying and stopped talking to my boyfriend and ended up hurting his feelings when that happened. He thought I was crying because I didn’t want to be pregnant with him. I was crying because I have been through this 8 times to just be let down. I was crying because every time I got my hopes up in the past they were shattered in excruciating pain and heartbreak. I explained that to him and he understands now. But now I’m scared and nervous. What if this will just end the same? What if I just miscarry yet again. I don’t want to get my hopes up, but at the same time it’s hard not to. The doctors told me the ONLY way for me to have a child was through <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> and harvesting my eggs. Said there was a 1-5% chance of me ever getting pregnant on my own again and carrying to full term. Has anyone gone through this? It’s like a little miracle but I’m scared it’s just going to end in disappointment and heartbreak again.