Ok Ladies, just mainly coming here to vent bc I am known in my family as the “tough one” who doesn’t really show my emotions, (well the sad ones) and normally able to hold it together, but I AM STRUGGLING... BC of covid, and being okay financially, I was able to take my 12week maternity leave PLUS another 12weeks unpaid. So yes, I am very thankful I was able to have 6 months off with my baby....BUT I have to go back to work next week. I have, literally, never cried so much. Never felt so sick to my stomach. Never felt so anxious. Dry heaving. And I have to go back to working overnights, to a dangerous job that, right now in this country is prolly one of the most hated occupations out there. I didnt mind the risk before, but now having my baby, has completely changed my mindset with this job. I just dont see this feeling going away anytime soon. And seriously considering finding a new job. Ok, for anyone who read ALL of that, thank you! Does it get better? Should I just find a new job?!