This isn’t my body

Specially speaking about my vagina. I tore during delivery and I just feel like my vagina is ruined now. I think I’m too insecure to ever have a sex again. I’m so much wider than I was before 😭 This is causing me to become quite depressed.

My OB told me I was all healed up and I was disappointed when he said that because like... I expected this thing to shrink up some more.

I heard people say “you get even tighter after birth”, and that wasn’t the case for me.

Somebody please tell me there is something I can do about this