Hard time spending my own money

Hey anyone have a tough time mentally on spending money on themselves? I have about 3 different websites full of items for myself. Shoes, some jewelry that's BOGO, clothes,etc. I am always buying stuff for my kids or my husband, other family members but never myself. My husband bought me some perfume by versace and I couldn't help but feel the need to take it back. I look around my house and see things that's needed like new furniture, fridge, tables. I just feel guilty spending it on me. I don't have alot of clothes or shoes most of my stuff I wear repeatedly during the week. I have been waiting on my unemployment since August and I finally got the money but something in me is saying don't spend it. It didn't help that my husband said the money is already spent because the house I bought from the city needs fixing. We have to buy a furnace, hot water tank, fix floors, paint. 😭 I don't wanna be a grown-up.