I’m in tears writing this, I’m so heartbroken breastfeeding is not what I thought it would be. I just want to be able to nurse my baby without a constant battle without making her upset or making me upset. I have the stigma of thinking if I give her formula it will make me feel less of a mother and I know that’s wrong but I just want to be able to breastfeed. She will scream as if I’m murdering her every time I try to latch her and once I finally do latch her she doesn’t empty out my breast let alone the other one. Then I get up and pump but who do I leave the baby with? for months i have been pumping day and night and I’m at my breakpoint I hate breastfeeding so much. I hate pumping and she just won’t latch... I’m feeling so guilty but I feel it’s time I give up I’m so heartbroken. 5 months of struggling day and night but I’m finally done even though it breaks my heart.