He has a baby!

So I’m going to try and make this short as possible. About 5 years back cheated on my boyfriend and I got pregnant and the baby’s dad and my mom forced me into a abortion. After a long two months I couldn’t take the abuse and ended getting the abortion. I was heart broken all I wanted was to keep my baby even though I messed up! I never got over getting the abortion and regret it I would take that day back I’m a heart beat!!! But anyways months afterwards and even till this day I know I shouldn’t but I still talk to the baby’s dad and sometimes we even hook up and today he just told me he found out he has a two year old child he didn’t know about. And it just brings up old feelings like that could’ve been me but it’s not. If you were in my shoes would you feel some type of way???