Can someone please tell me that I’m not the only one who feels so upset when I see everyone around me getting pregnant when they weren’t even trying and yet here I am 2 years of TTC and nothing.

Tell me I’m not the only one who blames myself.

Maybe I’m too fat

Maybe if I worked less

Maybe if I worked more

Maybe if I didn’t have anxiety

Maybe this or that or something

Tell me it’s okay that although I’m happy for them, I’m sadder for myself.

Tell me it’s okay to be jealous.

Why do I see people in toxic relationships who have a 7 month old baby announcing another pregnancy.

Why do I see people who would rather go out and get drunk and high and let their parents raise their kid for them keep having kids.

Why can’t I, who’s married, owns a house, has stable income, get pregnant as easily.

Just why.