Giving up on trying to get pregnant

I'm done crying looking crazy at faint lines hoping it will get darker for 3 years chemical pregnancy month after month while doctor's said it was in my head only to confirm I was pregnant having to keep changing obgyn because they don't listen Doctor's don't care with Black women I'm done I'm grateful to have one but my husband don't want to try any other way. I don't even want to have sex as much as he does but I can't take this bitterness of everyone around getting pregnant even getting issues resolved whatever I did in a pass life I must of been shitty and I get it so it's rare for me to give up but I'm done I even thought I was with the wrong person I asked God to not let me get pregnant again unless it's my husband and still nothing time to focus on my business