Scared to do IUI

I’m 30, my husband and I have been trying for 6.5 years. He is perfect and I have PCOS - since we haven’t been successful (1MC , got pregnant our honeymoon)

We’ve finally went to a specialist and they suggested IUI immediately.. told me I only had a 5% chance with natural sex and 8% with an IUI.. we have been trying and I have been praying and I like anyone else wanted to conceive my baby with my husband naturally.. since that didn’t happen it looks like I’m going to have to get inseminated and I was raped/molested by my cousins who were much older than me and it feels very mechanic to have someone inseminate me (even if it’s for a beautiful cause)

Anytime a doctor touches my vagina I have the worst trauma and flash backs and I hate the thought of a doctor basically having to get me pregnant and not physically between my husband and I..

What do I do!?