Laughed at me

So I’m really boring when it comes to sex i don’t need much to get off honestly it’s easy and so far my husband says he doesn’t care but i know he like more sexy stuff. So I’ve been trying. Letting suck on my toes, a little butt stuff sometimes, like whatever i try to try. So tonight i was going to try sucking on his finger while he was fucking me thinking he would think it’s sexy (like he’s mentioned before he likes stuff like that) but instead he just kind chuckled and then so obviously tried to cover it up with a fake cough. Idk sex was just different tonight. It didn’t feel comfortable tonight it didn’t feel like he thought i was beautiful.

I’ve gained weight recently and I’m super aware and trying to work it off because I’m not happy with it. And this is the first time i felt unattractive to him. 😭😭😭