A year into our marriage my husband brought up his sexual fantasy which included me having sex with another man, while he watches .... at first i said no way but he kept asking and so I told him to give me time to think about it. A year passed and he brought it up again this time around i was more open minded and decided to play out his fantasy. We went through some months of research and messaging back and forth with potential “play mates”.... The time finally came and it all went down. It didn’t go as planned and after that bad experience i told my husband i didn’t feel so comfortable doing it again. I felt as if my husband was disappointed that i didn’t want to partake in his fantasy anymore and that’s when our sex life took a bad turn. After about a year later he brought up the idea of me sexting with other men. So we gave it a try but it also turned out to be a bad idea because my husband claims i was “too in touch with my feelings” ..... I told him i can’t do it anymore and it’s best if we leave his fantasy alone because it only creates problems in our marriage. He obviously wasn’t a fan of my decision. Now it’s been about 3 months that we haven’t had sex and I’m so sexually frustrated, all i think is about sex. My husband just started a new job and goes in very early and that’s probably one of the reasons why he doesn’t show interest but stopped showing interest before his new job..... I’m soo confused. I’ve noticed ive started fantasizing about having sex with men other than my husband but i don’t want to participate in his hot wife fantasy either.... idk what to do. Just venting i guess.

No one knows about this btw no friend, no one lol